Below are the 2 most recent journal entries recorded in BRIAN's LiveJournal:

Sunday, October 6th, 2002
9:19 pm	alskjdf things have been working well lately...sometimes i think they ar'nt but then i pick my mood up and get a way better perspective on things...im at the University looking up crap...ah and i got my own place by the the University hence why im up here cause its so close and there's alot to do up here suprisingly...the place is a little small but its wayy cheap and close to alot of friends...for $250 bones and 275 with phone and cable its going to be easy to save up ...anyways i am glad i found it...it was nice staying with my aunt and grandfather, well not really grandfather cause hes a little difficult and constantly wakes up with the crabapple McCnasties...i could'nt really handle it..i never really understood him untill now, and thats seriously not even saying much...when i started staying with him and my aunt a month ago i noticed there was alot of involvment between him and the neighbor Ann...im certainly not a naive person ( at least when it dos'nt involve my emotions) esp when it comes to looking into other people, but i think my grandfather is actually seeing another woman..my grandma died over a month 1/2 ago and for being married for 60 yrs on the dot that seems pretty quick to get over someone...so im either thinking hes extremely lonely and wants to have another companionship or is just giving a rather large helping hand with Ann the neighbor...either way it is none of my buisness, nor my dads/amy's...the man has lived his life and deserves to do whatever he pleases i just hope hes happy with whatever he is doing or making him happier at least...in some way i dont blame him but in others its kinda hard to except knowing ive been through something like this but it was'nt 60 yr marriage...i know Helen would have wanted him to be happy...we will see... on another note im pretty happy right now and staying busy...i think im going to approach my dad about school pretty soon...ive been looking into the Aveda Institute of Ny and Mn, the representatives told me they are opening a Institute in california which is alot closer...i talked to betty about schooling a little and actually had the balls to ask her about financing it, well not exactly so directly but she basicaly told me there is alot of money set aside for me and school so im way glad about that...and im glad i actually want to take the initiative to do this... its been to long since ive written in here, im going to try and get on here more and update... cia Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Bright Eyes in my head (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 12th, 2002
4:11 am	i dont know where to start...for the past two and half months or so ive neglected putting thought into words and words into sentences...i hav'nt written in anything or in live journal in quite some time, sometimes id rather just think about everything and keep it inside where it will always be with me but i already know that is'nt good..its 4 am..i was trying to sleep and of course that did'nt work cause all i can think about is the negative things instead of the positive..its like when you have the only idle time to yourself without distractions your mind is completly occupied with things that are pushed way back in your head hopefully left for dead but of course there always comes a time when you have nothing to distract you.. it has almost been one month since my grandmother has passed... reno is going well i suppose..i have a decent job which hopefully is going to go well and just the other day i finalized my apartment in atlanta...i have someone subleting it for six months and we'll see about the remainder months untill the lease is up..ive very glad this is taken care of for now though. i miss the apt alot... im at my grandmothers house right now and lately ive been helping out betty ( my ferocious 91 yr great aunt ) with making meals and doing chores for her..she is a smart woman i always wonder what she was like at my age...my grandfater is super grumpy..what is new with that...he seems to be doing well with everyting, but he is a person that keeps alot inside, and being married to my grandmother for 60 yrs hes damn good at it.. i miss kroger and making spagetti with vegan meat sauce...i made some this week but it was'nt the same... goodnight Current Mood: to many moods Current Music: The Good Life (Comment on this)